ILaugh

It was late last Tuesday at approximately 8:45 pm. The moment I thought I would never be able to face without my emotions exploding. I had pondered for the last year whether I'd explode with anger or drown in my tears if this day should ever come. Like they say, "out of sight, out of mind". I believed that I was truly over it all but questioned how my heart would respond if my eyes seem him again. I was driving on 65 when I seen a familiar truck. Oh, I would have recognized it anywhere! Especially since I have practically begged to drive that truck for a year and a half without any luck. It was him, my ex. And as our cars became parallel he noticed me. I had thought that I would be the one to do something stupid, but boy was I wrong! He put on his brakes (on the highway mind you) to slow down to what seemed like 20mph. He was sure to put as much distance between us as possible. Avoiding me. He was always good at that. And as all these things transpired I found myself smiling. Then I burst into uncontrollable laughter. I laughed at every memory, every hurt, every tear shed. I laughed at what had me bound. I laughed at my past because finally I could smile at my present. I was not angry. I was not sad. I was free! It was like looking at an old high school picture of yourself. You think,"what was I wearing?!". "That was in?!" "I look so much better now!" And then you smile and chuckle to yourself.

Look. I'm not writing about this occurrence to just write something nasty about my ex. There is a message of truth in all this.

Those things that once had you down- whether you embraced them or not, don't have to have the power over you! I don't care what you were bound by-food, alcohol, anxiety, drugs, depression, PEOPLE, A RELATIONSHIP! It doesn't matter if you were bound mentally, spiritually, or emotionally, you don't have to let it have the power over you anymore!

And let me tell you something. Once God sets you free, just like my ex put as much distance between our vehicles as possible, so will that thing that had you bound! It won't want to get anywhere near your sanctified self!

Let God take control and all you'll be doing is laughing! After all, laughter doeth good like a medicine. So if you're gonna get high off any drug, let it be laughter!

I am so thankful to God for getting me out of that mess even though I didn't deserve it. I can proudly say that today I am very happy with my present. Nothing broken, nothing missing. Oh how good it feels to be free! So good that I think I might just....hahhahhahahahhaha LOL!!!!!